Divinely Appointed Rest

 For most of the world it is the New Year now. For all practical purposes there is value in at least knowing what day it is . But, I confess I find myself torn between two worlds.

I live here in this world of politics, history, and decisions being made that I have zero control over. And, I live in a spiritual world with a deep burning loyalty to my Creator and His Word. 

And so for the physical, and practical side of life... it is 2026. I have a new Bible reading plan. I have classes to be a part of, and all around me there are goals being set. 

There is nothing wrong with that in my estimation. Indeed, I have already declared to myself a desire to read more books, consume less social media, and heal my body. These goals are not unlike the rest of the world. Especially , those here in America.

Spiritually, I'm making a determined effort to sit down and stay put in my Father's hand. 

Hashem knows the way that I take... and in this I find a great ease of my spirit. There is no rush. He leads me beside still waters. At the present, I am admittedly not at full capacity physically. Instead of agonizing over my lack of bursting energy and health, I'm choosing to wait patiently during this process of healing.

If I'm not careful, I can confuse this "sit down" of the heart to be viewed as inaction, or a laziness of some kind.

But no, there is beauty at rest. While the world around me is frozen and sleeping, I will let my soul sleep with it. My heart will safely trust that Adonai is doing the work that He needs to do. And I will let Him do it. 

This decision to so emotionally trust that God is at work , and I am allowed to be secure in His hand doesn't come easily. 

For surely the pressure to be, and to achieve, to gain, and to accumulate has often so overwhelmed me that I feel ineffective and pathetic as a human if I am not perceived as charging the gates of hell tirelessly.

I cannot be the only woman to feel this way. Let alone the only woman of Judeo/Christian faith that has struggled with a Martha like spirit. 

I have recently been casually studying the concept of Edenic Womanhood. To my deduction, it is an embracing of the life cycle, spirit, and intention of the way God intended for women to thrive. 

I believe He gave us seasons, tied to the seasons He gave the earth, and in that vein of truth, I allow my spirit to be in winter. Buried under snow, hibernating , chilled, and retreated to emerge in the spring. The accounts of Creation in Genesis are for not only scientific knowledge, historical, theological, and to improve us; but I believe inside of the creation of Adam and Eve are beautiful secrets hidden in plain sight that give us keys to how He intended our bodies to function and our spirits to thrive. 

Winter is for hibernation. A good winter that has ample snow, and rain, and cold temperatures, makes the way for an abundant spring and a profitable summer leading itself to a bursting harvest. Hashem intentionally created our bodies to need these seasons for our own spiritual,physical, and emotional well being.

This intentional rest is not devoid of purpose. It is the purpose. It is not an emotional "checking out" it is an emotional "checking in"... When my soul feels buried, frozen, and lifeless.. I can rest in the truth that according to the divine intentions of Adonai, I am right where I should be. 

Do you feel paralyzed? Can you just not bring yourself to muster up an idea ? Are you tired? Does socializing feel draining? 

Let me remind you dear sister, we are in winter. The Lord will do His work in us this season and it will be a good work. Even if it doesn't feel good. He is good, every time.